I hate feeling like this. It’s staring in the face of a long list of work and nothing is motivating me to jump at it. All I can do is dive in and just DO some of it. Find the groove and force myself to get to that creative place. I will not let myself fall into the funk again.
Shooting interviews tomorrow. Editing tonight. Teaching in the early mornings. Sleep needs to occur in there somewhere. Some days it just feels like I can’t slow down. Eventually this drags me down with illness or exhaustion. And I’m still way behind on my self imposed deadlines.
Most of the past year has been about curbing some bad habits. and reinforcing good ones. I keep my home a lot cleaner - I mean A LOT cleaner. Where I am wavering is in watcinhg movies more. I even got this amazing sofa specifically FOR watching movies, but I haven’t increased the viewing of the films. Argh! I go back and forth on editing. Some days I get the groove and I cut, at home, at work, on my laptop, but then there are still those days where I slip back into the malaise of not cutting. I NEED to maintain my productivity!
As someone who is neither a technophobe or without knowledge of computers, it was somewhat surprising to many that I do not have a network at home nonetheless a wireless one. Because I recently purchased a 2nd WDTV (Western Digital Media Player), the newer versions have many network features. Today I got a wireless router and setup a home network.
With a somewhat epic journey, I have my location for the next Cell Phone Monologue. I have always preached that Film Commissions are not really there to help local filmmakers as their function is to bring outside production money in; I have to eat those words because the Columbus Film Commission paved the way into a museum to shoot and I am very excited because cinematically, having that environment ain’t easy to fake. So thanks film commissions for helping a local boy get into a hard to shoot location!
Last night my dad came over to see the new place and we watched SKYFALL on the big screen in the new theater style seats. When I was very young, just before VHS was RCA’s ‘videodisc’ format and aside from STAR WARS, my dad purchased all of the Sean Connery James Bond movies. I watch all of them repeatedly.
My home repairs are ramping down. I’m reaching this point where I’ll basically be ‘done’ for a while. I want to take a solid year where I don’t buy any furniture or decor. Just want that space to breathe. I’m almost to that point now. Just a few more weeks of tinkering and a couple of tiny purchases left. Being happy in one's space just makes for balance.
Wanna know something I hate? When people make presumptions, get angry about their own idiotic conclusions that don’t resemble reality, and then spew their uneducated theories out onto the world. It irritates me because propagating ignorance without debate or critical thinking does no one any good. Youtube is NOT about to start charging for EVERYTHING. This simply is not true.
Some people are put on this earth to frustrate the rest of us. This weekend wound up being productive even though I was a little under the weather. I got some much needed sleep, like a baby after a meal on the left mammary dispenser. I attacked some painting in the house - a whole wall and of course little Lorenzo the Kitten found a way to get purple paint in his grey fur. At least this time I kept him from getting it all over the new couch. Now I have some time to get my projects tackled!
Writing is the hardest part of any movie. Far too many times have I breezed past this step and gone straight into shooting. Uh uh, not ever again. Debating and questioning every word helps make the work stronger. Fighting for what you believe increases the quality. We’re writing and re-writing all the time now.